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Not Helping the Eternal Why Why Why?

In Pronoia by Nick Chan

Where am I?
Lost. With no coordinates except to orientate myself to the sun.
Where do we go from here?
From here to there. From there to here back again.
What do I need to do?
Left hand tap twice; right hand tap thrice.
Why do I keep going back to the past?
Because this is what I’ve been trained to do. To walk backwards.
What is the meaning of all of this?
Of nothing.
This must mean something.
Of something.
What is the plan?
To be here and now.
What about the world and its problems?
This has never been your problem to begin with.
Why suffering?
It is the mechanics of transitioning from life to death to life.
How do I be a better person?
Start doubting yourself.
Can I be anybody I want to be?
Yes. Because you are nobody to begin with.
What about the riches of the world?
You cannot understand riches if your mind suffers from poverty.
So what should I do?
Anything you desire.
But doesn’t desire cause suffering?
True desire diminishes suffering. False desire enhances suffering.
How do I know this is true?
The same way that you know that this is false.
Why can’t I remember many things that have happened?
You are sleeping. This still feels like a dream to you.
But my memory….
Congratulations. You have mastered the art of sleep walking.
Why are there so many divisions in this world?
This is the only way to create power.

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Nick Chan

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Nick divides time between music and sound-stuff, in both work and leisure capacity. As a budding game designer, he has not released anything.

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